twingunnerhaseo

Write me off in a chapter in your book so you can forget me in time but you'll always be an important part of mine where you'll always missed sorely. Neither the hero nor the villain in my own story I feel like the nameless character meant to further the plot who the author then forgot. In time I'll vanish with out a trace but you won't notice and even if you did you wouldn't give chase because there's nothing worth mending and I'm not worth pretending. So go ahead and forget I understand and it may upset me and it'll definitely hurt me but maybe it's for the best I just be erased and accept it with grace

Tired of pretending I don't think my friendships are ending because how can I expect them to last when things became stained so fast. We say we care and we'll always be there but when we can find nothing to say at the end of the day are we really there for one another or are we no more then 2 statues with there backs to one another" I'll always be there for you" engraved on the cracked hearts they hold in their hands but silent they stand" I'm here if you need me" but silent they stay as though there's nobody to listen anyway" holding on to promises of dreams that will never be real turning their hearts to stone so they don't break from how t

What do you do when the bonds that hold you together slowly fall apart.when your heart starts to ache from the bond starting to break, when you feel like your whole world is starting to grow cold as you feel like that which you hold dear is just going to disappear. When you can't let go of regrets for words said that stay in your head so you'll never forget. When you have so much you want to say but let fear of causing more tears get in the way because your head is filled with thoughts of all the pain that been brought but the silence drives you insane. How do you repair a relationship when you feel like you're the only one there when you kno

In done being the only one to try and mend burnt bridges with those closest to me, with  pretending I'm ok when at the end of the day I feel like shit for every hit I take for mistakes I've made from people who's promises I keep but they break faster then they fall asleep, with burning my self out from depression because of people who don't return the affection, with opening myself up to people who shut me out of their world for a single mistake while they're In mine from when I wake to when I dream, I'm tired of feeling like I'm falling apart at the seams trying to repair those close to me while they watch to see when I'll break so I'm done

I'm a a pathetic fool who over nothing is filled with depression and I try to fight it off with my stupid obsession. My Friends when I'm alone in the dark a single word is like a spark that brightens my world some are like matches that burn for a few seconds then turn to ashes and then there's the ones that shine so bright I can't tell the difference between day and night just talking to them warms my heart then once they're gone my world falls apart. One thing that seems to be the same though is like a flame they all die out I try to hold on tightly because I yearn their love and attention until I'm either left burned or have smothered them

dreams are lies that I despise made up of illusions of false hope that sufficate like a rope around your neck, when you're in one your heart soars like never before they show you the life you seek in a world that isnt quite so bleak a place where you find your true love or can fly and look down endlessly on the world from above. but then you wake up and your heart breaks and your hands shake because you realize it was all fake so instead give me a nightmare filled with dispair at least then there is no happyiness to feel and no light for the dark reality to steal

this silence is driving me insane making me feel like i reach out in vain to those I fear have disappeared I miss the conversations that would endlessly go on from dusk til dawn but now it feels as though i've done something wrong since I haven't heard from them is so long and I know that its a part of life for people to lose touch but it always bothers me so much because to me their friendship means the world and because of that I wont pretend it doesn't bother me when I feel like its come to and end and makes me wonder if i have done something wrong once we haven't talked for so long I know I cant expect to always talk on command which is w

I have tried to pull myself from this place of fake friends only to fail in the end because I am doomed to be constantly befriended and betrayed to be made to look like a fool and be used as a tool. I have thought about simply fading away because I doubt anyone would care if I stayed after all why would anyone care about someone who can not be there for you if you needed them so I wonder if I will ever wake form this dream of friends that are fake .

Welcome to hell both friends of the light and children of the night sink into despair at the realization that you have always been there it is not what angels expect or even what demons respect it is a place that will cause all to drown in sorrow as they  watch all around them attempt to hasten their decent into your darkest fears and laugh  as the tears drip down their face and fall to the ground  and once they have broken you they will give you a knife to let you take your own life but after the blood has left your body and you believe you are dead you will wake up in your bed questioning if you have gone insane as you prepare to go through